God Answers Prayers...

So it's not that I really doubted God or His faithfulness to answer prayers. But let's face it as a human I saw my list of prayer requests and thought to myself there is no way God will be able to get through all of these. Let's face it ... humans are rarely able to see past the possible and see the impossible... well maybe just this human.

So. Prayers God has taken care of...well all of em. But here are the answers to some of them. My brother and Justin both got into Tres Dias. I don't know how. Maybe someone pulled strings. Maybe it was God. Maybe it was simple paper work error. Then... all of this stress with Tres Dias... two people have emailed me from my section in effort to "connect" with me. It may not seem like a lot, but it eases my mind. The work situation is starting to look up both financially and hours. I got a second job.... please pray it works out ok. I have done this job before this is my fourth year. It's for the Christmas season.

Oh...and this... My parents are praying about going to Tres Dias in the spring!!!!!!!!! Just them praying about it is an answer to prayer. It's better than just saying NO.

Anyone who reads this and has contact info on K. West... I really need a phone or email addy on her ASAP.

I love you all.

Jess

Frustrations

Today has been a half good day... I found out that my brothers and my brothers friends application for Tres Dias have been lost in the mail and they may not be able to attend the weekend after all. This comes as a huge disappointment to them. They both adore Roy Hooker so much...

Then I find out that perhaps things aren't as they would seem with serving on TD at all... I feel very overwhelmed by it all. A pressure to behave in ways that aren't common to VN... I feel lost without all the "youth"... It's just different. I am out of my comfort zone.

Then my friend comes over tonight and we spend the night entertaining my little brothers. Annoying as heck. I don't mind them, but I wanted some time alone... well friend time.

Geesh.

Study...Study...Study...

So these last few weeks I have taken to studying whatever it is I can get my hands on. I found myself "thirsting" for knowledge. Studying my college books from classes I had to drop because financial aide is not available to me... old math and literature books... translating words from one language to another... learning to read and write in the language as well... and most importantly studying the word of God.

I have found myself drawn to the Old Testament. Specifically Ezekiel and Jeremiah. I have been reading a lot of Ezekiel... What a wonderful book.

Well I am off to drawn myself in my studies. Perhaps I will be online later... if someone wanted to chat around 8 or so that would be cool with me.

Jess

Two Faced?

Am I two faced?

On one hand I proclaim Jesus as my Lord and Savior. I claim to put him first.
On the other my actions show little of Jesus in my life.

This has been bugging me a lot lately.
That is why the lack of posts.

Jess

Phillipians 4:13

"I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength."

What does this mean to me?

It means I can do all things...
-spinning jump roundhouse kicks
-patience with new kid at work
-yah kitchen
-saving money to get my own place one day
-learning to teach kids how to defend themselves

I can do all things.

Jess

Feeling Frustrated...

A lot of stuff is going on in politics. Being raised in a Republican/Independent home and in the Christian faith I guess there are certain "expectations" I am expected to live up to.

First of all people expect me to feel some sort of hatred for President Bush because of the war in Iraq and the stuff that has been going on with it. I'm sorry but I can not hate anyone, so don't ask me to do that. Secondly he is the president of the USA... WE put him there. If you didn't vote and you were old enough then that is your fault. Don't blame the rest of America because you didn't get off the couch and vote. Maybe it is because of my parents, and probably because of taking ROTC and Martial Arts, I have a high respect for those placed in charge. Regardless of what I ever thought of any one in charge I would never go as far as to slander their name on the internet where words can never be taken back. I am not saying lay back and take it, but in good taste and out of respect for God and the country use caution and censorship when you are typing things like
"F*** Bush" or "Get Bush Out Of Office". The man is doing the best he can, he didn't ask for September 11, he didn't ask for a war in Iraq... He is doing what he thinks is right for the country he was VOTED to run.

The next thing that bugs me are the people who have the nerve to dis people in the military. They are out there busting their butts for us. They get no hug at the end of the day from their mommy and daddy. They don't come home every night to a home cooked meal. They are defending our freedom. No one walks into a recruiters office and signs up for the military and goes "I hope we go to war tomorrow." (Ok, well 99% of em don't.) When you have served your country, when you have held that M16 in your hands and fought on the front lines then you have earned that right to bash them. Until then, shut it. They are doing what they feel is right, and they are doing what they are told to do by their commanding officer.

I am not saying this to be mean, but I get tired of people basing our president and our military, like they simply love the idea of risking their lives everyday to save your ungrateful butts. I have 9 friends in the military and not one of them would take back the decision they made to join. Not even the 7 who have been to Afghanistan and Iraq.

That is all for now. I need to go breathe.

Jess